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Tuesday, April 10, 2007
4/10/2007 07:40:00 PM
I am so tired today!!!


I woke up at 920 today to go running. From my house all the way to IKEA!!! I'm like, half dead?? I really admire my cousin's stamina!! She never stopped once even when we are waiting for the traffic. Ok, i know we arent suppose to like just pause like that, but i told you, i was really half dead so i so totally stopped and died there.


And we ran and ran, ran and ran, ran and ran, and yeah, another pit stop at the traffic light. And i died there again. And then we resume our run, and we ran and ran, ran and ran, ran and ran. I'm not kidding you. The distance is IMPOSSIBLY long. Yes.


But the run was well ran. Or rather, i was well rewarded after the run. I had te ikea breakfast!! Haha!! The sausage is really a kill for man!!! Its really a oh-my-god-ish nice!!! And the toast...


Ahh.. And then after breakfast we were suppose to run back home. But im lke, no, not over my dead body!! I'm really so tired!! So haha, my cousin and i shopped at ikea.. Went to the house-like place and enjoy ourselves.. Lol. I love ikea man!!


Anyway, suddenly feel like going back to hss to visit friends, teachers, and most importantly, choir. So i messaged yinkhay and arranged a time to meet her at two in the canteen. And how i miss the canteen man!! Those one dollar food. Ahhhh... So ya, anyway, we catched up with yinkhay, (me and yan ting went) and we chatted about everything we have missed in each others' lives.Very nice to see old friends. And then i saw many other ppl, like siying, willie, gary, rafidah and a few teachers.


We actually wanted to look for mr tan but he is in mission hardwork and we dont know the venue so didnt go in the end. So we slacked outside staff room for a while because we were talking to zhen kai. And then miss sek came, and we chatted like for forever. Lols. Its actually quite funny cos i wasnt close to miss sek but we can actually chat so long.


And then she left firs cos she needed to mark books so we left also to find choir. And then its like the timing is super good, we saw the non-syf group coming out of avt and so we went in and talked with mrs lee. After that she brought us up to music room to find the syf ppl. Haha, i dunno wy but the timing is really good!! They were just starting their break. Best!!


So we went in and we saw him. Ok, J. And ya, that moment was like, (ok itsdramatic, but everything just paused) and he waved at me so i waved back. Wait, did i wave first or he waved first?? Ok, either way. But i can see his face. Total shock. But he was smiling!!!! HE. WAS. SMILING. At ME!!!


I can just float if there isnt any ceiling there. Serious. And then, ok, we saw mrs ong, actually she was really in good shape. Maybe because she isnt teaching us anymore and just sit at the back so less stressful. But i dunno why, actually felt happy to see her. And see her in good shape.


Some updates on choir: We have a new pianist for the syf group. Miss Ng ah hoon, miss looi aka mrs lee is in choir. We have a trainee teacher teaching the non syf group. Very good guy, can see he's actually very friendly. There's three josephs in choir. One is badi's brother, joseph. One is a junior, joseph. One is the ex HP, joseph ang. Acorrding to mrs lee, the sec one this year is very well behave. 100% FULL ATTENDANCE!!!!!! I'M SO PROUD OF THEM. The choir is really good, the sopranos rocks, the alto rocks, and the guys rocks. There's a new teaching style in choir : sitting on the chair, or rather half the chair, and lift their legs. To train their stomach. And they go running almost every choir practice. (somewhere behind the back of my mind, im glad i have graduated)


Ya, thats what i have gathered so far for the updates of choir. To put simply. HSS CHOIR ROCK.


And so we stayed for a while to listen to their set piece this year. Very good i can say. And all along, i was able to see him. Actually i feel really sad when i saw him. Started thinking back, and realise, late enough, he didnt even give me a clean break. We just broke apart. No goodbyes, no explaination, no nothing. Sigh, it really broke my heart at that time. But i saw him peeking t my direction for a few times.


And when they were asked to recover from their push up, he looked up and smiled at me. Awww.. i didnt even know if i smiled back. I was too.. surprised. Make me feel like we've back to our old times. Or maybe we didnt even changed our old times.. it just disappeared. Made me re-think if i should approach him and try to start all over again. I tought i already made my decision. Maybe because i was just cheating myself. I didnt even let go of it. Every now and then, i will still think of him, very naturally, like the time at the interchange. My cousin told me in the face i havent let go of him. But i told her i did. Maybe i really wasjust cheating myself. But there isnt anything i can do. It takes two to tango. If im willing and he's not, it just cant happen. For the last time, God, please tell me what to do during times like that. Did you give me that dream last night about him and i cried because i miss him so much for a reason? I really think it was. I cant have dream of him after two long solid years. Now all i need, is a answer. God!! I really miss him so much!!! You know that feeling?? When you miss someone so much and you cant have them??


We left at around 5 cos yt has an appointment. Actually we wanted to say bye like quietly but cos we cant not say bye to mr liew right? So yt say we'll wave. And so we did. And wow, so much for being quiet. Mr liew saw us wave and he gigantic-ly waved back. And like of os everyone looked at us. Mr liew is like, ok say bye to your senior. So we all waved, exchanged our goodbyes, and yes, he looked at me, a bit awkwardly, and said bye. I said bye back and waved, told them good luck and break a leg on the 19 of april. And ya, i kept my cool. I didnt die of hyper-ventilation, i didnt do anything stupid. I didnt cry when he said bye to me. Of cos its of happiness, duh.


After that when we were about to leave the school , i saw mr chong's car, and casually commented it to yt. And she's like, ya!! We havent find mr tan!!!! So we went back and called for him. Haha, he's like shocked and paused there for a while when he saw us. Lol. That comical face of his. And we chatted and chatted. YT like totally dont care about her appointment anymore. But ok ah, its not important. But anyway, we saw mr chong and he gave us chocs!! Haha!!! And then at around six we saw him leaving so we followed to took a lift from him!!! Haha!! Yu ping is going to be so jealous!!!! We took photos for evidence so haha!!


He took us to central and i went to the bank. My parents came to give me a lift, and that super idiotic mum of mine, she expect me to fly there and meet them. Its like please lah , i do have to walk right? and then she start nagging... say i everyday go out. Lame lor. And then she nag my dad for being late to fetch her. And the reason is because my dad needed to use the toilet. Its like, please for goodness. Dont you have times like that too??? And he was only freaking late for a few minutes. She thinks she's the queen. She thinks she's giving birth. Like everyone has to reach, no, fly there to meet her. Please lah, i got better things to do than to meet her lor. And my dad has better things to do like earning money than to fetch her and get nagged at lor. WTH. I was like in such a bad mood. The minute i came out of the car, i started walking away. Didnt even bothered to help her cary her stuffs. I took out my ipod and blasted it. And she kept nagging. Whtever. I cant hear no sit from her apart from her mouth moving like hell. But argh, i dont care.


Nag all she wants man!!!
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