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Thursday, April 19, 2007
4/19/2007 11:31:00 PM
I just went to read his blog (and i know he dont know i know his blog) but long story.

Anyway, he told me he didnt (not directly say he didnt but he meant it that way i suppose) but in his blog i saw that he said he cried because he couldnt control himself. And it was the first time he ever cried for something he had hated before.

I felt really bad, cos i didnt know that he cried. And i wont know if i didnt read his blog. Felt like i can only go through to him only through his blog, something virtual. Made me feel so down and useless again. I'm so useless, i dont even know the real the feeling he was feeling when he got bronze.

And i really cant imagine seeing him cry. I will cry if i see him cry. It just hurt to see him cry so bitterly, like what he said in his blog. And i felt useless for couldnt be there for him when they know the results, when what he needed most was comforting.

I'm so useless!!

But one thing i really hope is that, i hope it was me who somehow or rather made him love choir like he do now. And made him actually felt sad for getting only a bronze after months of practicing. But i know, i am just cheating myself. Of cos he didnt like choir because of me.

Why do i always have to be the idiot??
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