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Thursday, May 31, 2007
5/31/2007 03:31:00 PM
Just feel like letting it all out.

Was just writing my journal for my attachment just now. Actually i cheated cos the journal is to be kept from week one attachment until now. But i only bought the notebook yesterday and just finished writing it an hour ago.

When i was writing and came to week four attachment, i just coudn't help but feel like sharing. When i went to my attachment on tuesday, the chinese teacher told me that boy in my class contracted HFM disease. I was really sad because i have just seen that child last week.

And he was not the only child who got the disease. Other kids from other levels also got it. Its just very sad.

But this was only the beginning. Everything just seemed wrong after that. I heard my supervisor talking to the chinese teacher something in chinese. Cos i don't really understand the chinese words they used, i tot i heard them talking about this kid's mother being sick etc.

Then the chinese teacher turned towards me and told me that a kindergarten child's mother 自询短命. At first i was like, what diesease is that? So i asked her what does that mean. And she told me it meant committed suicide.

I was like, wth!!!! I was super shocked. And the teacher even told me that before that the mother was still at the centre talking to the teachers like nothing is bothering her. And next minute she committed suicide because of depression.

Even though i don't know the exact date she did that but i know its kinda recent. Sighs.

When i was writing that journal entry, my heart was like so pain. Every shit have to happen all at once. First its me, then it has to happen to the innocent young children in the centre.

I think i'm really beginning to believe in superstition. Everything is just going wrong in this world. All at once. There wasn't even time to breathe and we will have to take another blow.

And it may have made me stronger also. I just want to believe that if i work hard enough to go through this phase of life, i will be a stronger woman in future. Because if i were to list the things that went wrong, i would have to kill all the trees in world to have enough paper to write on.

And suicides is just going to be erased from my mind- for now. I have more pressing matters to think about. For instance, how to save this sorry life of mine.

But i'm strong. Because of all the things that had happened to me, i'm strong.

If you could just close your eyes for a moment and think about all the people suffering around us. I know, we all have guilty pleasures, i do too, but when we can make this world a better place, we will do it, won't we?

We shall all end this sad, sad entry of mine with a little prayer to the Gods (regardles of what religion you are) that this world can have a little more joy rather than sadness. And that this world will all experience fun and laughter, peace and joy.

Life is too short for us to feel sad.
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