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Friday, May 04, 2007
5/04/2007 11:37:00 PM
Sometimes i just feel like life is unfair to me.

Whenever i feel like something is finally getting into the right track, it goes off again. I got trash while other gets gold. I get forgotten by friends while she gets all the light. I got no one to share my joy with except blogging here. And sometimes i even wonder if anyone reads it.

I'm always being pushed aside and letting ppl get the things they want first and i get their leftovers. I get disagreements more than i get agreements. I get gang up by the most important ppl in my life. Get ostrasized, condemned. I get ignored by the person i think will be the one giving me comfort.

I get stares when i said something too good or too bad. Nobody listens to me or pretend they didn't hear me. One of my classmates is always giving me look when i outdid her. I got bad body shape. I am fat, i am short. I got ugly and dry hair. My seniors laugh at my hair and my fats while my ex-bestest friend gets all the praises.

I suck at everything. Running, excercising, playing pool, bowl.. I am emo more than i am happy. I suck at everything.

And no one even cared to think about my feelings sometimes. Like how my senior say that i got dry hair in public, how the other one strongly disagreed when i said i have lost weight.

How i get ganged up at home. How my mum agree to every single little thing my brother said and tell me i'm wrong. How they complain my music was loud when he himself is blasting the stupid tv like he's deaf.

How i wanted to share with my mum about my day and all she said was, shut up, your brother is sleeping. How i am always the one blamed when my brothers did something wrong when i wasn't even invloved. Like the time she shouted at me, its all your fault!!

Yes, its all my fault. Every shit thing that happen to anyone is my fault. And who's the one to be blamed when shit happens to me? Me.

And they are suppose to be the most important ppl in my life.

And the one i like, he ignores me. He will chat happily with you and when he feels like it he ignores me. Leaving me thinking what i have said wrong.

Ppl ignore my emails when its a very important message i am sending. Fine, its fine. I will just take it as you dont want to go then. Its really fine with me.

Nobody cares. Oh of cos, it doesn't even have anything to do with you. Do you find yourself stupid finish reading some random girl's sad life?

Whatever.
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